Hi
It was years ago since the last time I wrote. I'm kinda older now, you know... Not feeling adult yet, I'm 19. Burdened by responsibilities to be adult, but just not feeling fully adult yet. There were so many ups and downs, so many cries and smiles. I got a little depressed that, I, for the first time, cut my own wrist. I had suicidal thoughts too, but still loved my family. But the biggest resistance not to do so was because I was afraid of becoming a ghost, trapped in this evil world, for longer, being tortured. So, I didn't. There are actually so many things to write. But today I'm gonna write about my feeling of worthlessness. I can't even count how many times I had felt being worthless. I felt so sorry for myself. And now I'm feeling it. I'm feeling like I have no use, no value, no hope. I'm feeling like I do things wrong and I disappoint my parents. Well, I do. And that's why I'm feeling it. We're not in a good finan...
